Monday, April 19, 2010
Wow what a couple of days it has been! The weekend started out well felt great on sat. I worked all day then picked grandma up and took her to pick out some pretty flowers at Keller's. I came home and started to cook supper and enjoy the evening. Had to go potty not that, that was anything out of the ordinary but when I wiped I had started to spot. My heart hit the floor!! I instantly called my sister and then Brad. Mel told me to lay down and drink some water she would call out to the ob and talk to the girls.(it is great to have a sister who is a nurse in the ob dept and who is going for her midwife) She called back and told me point blank that there was nothing I could do that baby is not viable until 20 weeks WOW how do you process that? She told me to meet her out at the hospital and she would listen for the heart beat. So I went out and thank the good Lord the heart beat was good and strong! It is hard to think positive when you are put in that situation your mind just wonders in every wrong direction possible! I called my doctor on Monday and she said that was not common at this point and to just take it easy and not to lift anything over 15 lbs. She said to continue with my everyday activities and to just watch for cramping. She then proceeded to tell me that my quad screen test came back high for down syndrome. Could I have another possible thing go wrong!! It is not a diagnosis it is just saying the possibility is high and I need further testing. She is sending me to a high risk in Evansville were they will perform a high tec ultrasound and determine if the baby does have it or not. If it does further testing can be done. I have choose not to do the further testing it is to invasive and I will not take that risk. God knows what he is doing so it is all up to him. I guess he just thinks I am a pretty strong gal to put all of this on my plate. I have in my heart everything will be just fine and if not I will not love this baby any less He or she will still be the most beautiful baby in the world!! I have had a few people tell me that they had the same thing happen to them and everything came out fine. I had said in my last post that I didn't want to be the incubator anymore well I take that back I want this baby to stay tucked in tight as long as it needs to so it can come out crying and healthy. It has been moving around and I am loving every minute of it. It tells me it is strong and active. I will deal with the rest if I need to as I go. I just ask for extra prayers please. Oh and I am still not going to tell if it has extra parts or not! If anyone can come up with some "P" names that would be great! I only have 1 for a boy and Brad hates it I have a few for a girl but would love someone elses input.